Hurry Up and Heal Already!

Here we are, just shy of 3 weeks after surgery and I'm ready to have my life back.

Lying in bed all day, while the dream of so many, gets rather old...quickly. I've been working really hard at just accepting where I am at right now. (And if I forget, one accidental twist or bend reminds me right quick.) It's so hard because I feel like I should be so much further along. (Like I know anything about healing from something like this. Pff.) And when I just lay in bed, the guilt threatens to eat me alive. (Like I have anything to be guilty about!) Goodness gracious, I sometimes feel guilty for taking a pain pill. Which is the most asinine thing ever because I'm barely taking 2-3 pills/day now when I could be taking 8 pills/day, which is the amount it says on the bottle I could take if I need it. I don't understand why I carry around all this guilt. When I saw my doctor last week, he seemed to think I shouldn't be very far along right now at all. He just kept telling me to give myself some grace...that I just had major surgery. That it's going to take awhile to heal. So if a doctor who knows about the healing process for this surgery tells me to take it easy and rest, why is it so hard for me to have peace in that?

The Day I Had 20 Fibroid Tumors Removed From My Uterus

The alarm went off around 5:15 am, but I was already awake. Had been for hours.

So many thoughts running through my head. Did I get everything done that I needed to? I hope Aaron's sleeping right now. He really needs his rest to get through the day. What if this is my last night here on Earth? Have I done everything I wanted to?

Warning: Graphic photos from my surgery...

Just a quick hello after surgery. I wanted to share the photos of my fibroids that the doctor took out. They are extremely graphic so don't look if you can't stomach. Unfortunately I can't add a Read More from my phone to hide them, so if you use an RSS feed, sorry for bombarding you with these images!
I will do a proper update in a few days. Thank you for your love and prayers! We love you all so much!!
I just wanted to give you all some perspective. And yes, these were all inside me...